I am tired...

The title says it all...I Am Tired. I completely forgot what this first trimester crap feels like. I am exhausted, I feel like someone came and stole all of my energy and threw it away, I feel like I need to sleep for days and days. And of course I can't. Life was easy when I was pregnant and didn't have a baby to take care of already. I could come home from work and take a 2 hour uninterrupted nap, I could sleep in on the weekend and try to catch up on sleep, I could lounge on the couch and not worry about making bottles, washing bottles, packing the diaper bag, entertaining a fussy kid, carrying her heavy load around, etc... Don't get me wrong, I love her to death and am glad every day that she is here. I just want to sleep! Fortunately, because God must love me and because Nana must feel bad for me, I have a very good baby who sleeps through the night and who goes to bed early and who rarely gets very upset. And I thank God every day that is the case. There is a lady in my parenting group who was in tears at the last meeting because her baby doesn't stop crying, NEVER stops crying, he's allergic to everything under the sun and she can't keep him happy. I don't know how she hasn't gone over the edge, I really feel for her. I keep hoping that what "they" say is a bunch of crap too...that your second baby is the opposite of the first. If that is the case, i'm going to be severely punished.

Other than being tired, I have a gaping hole in my stomach begging to be filled with loaves of bread, bowls of pasta, boxes of popsicles and whatever else is in the house. I'm also craving a steak. I want a steak so badly I can almost taste it. I want a tender, juicy, thick filet with a side of mashed potatoes. I would give anything for my husband to say "hey, let's go to any steakhouse of your choice and get you a steak!!". Maybe for my birthday, but i'll have to wait a month for that. Other things on my wish list this week are for the excruciating pain in my back to go away. I think I have a pulled muscle and it isn't going to get any better carting around a probably 17 lb baby. I swear, i'm about ready to go to an acupuncturist and get some work done.

Ah but I have to laugh...this is the easy part. Just wait until i'm 32 weeks pregnant, can't sleep, can't roll over, have gigantic feet, don't have clothes that fit, have perpetual heart burn and am praying to God the baby won't go over the due date. And then it'll be born and I won't ever sleep again.